Vitamin C
Also trying vitamin C mega-doses (well, pretty small actually). Skin therapy, or at least so it seems to me in my demented mind.
Saturday, August 27, 2005
Whipps Cross Day
Spoke with Ranu for the first time in a month or so on Yahoo Messenger. She looks tired and sad. Was cursing a bit.
Mom and Dad called today. To discuss what is to become of Christopher.
Anniversary Whipps Cross day. Sent a brief message.
Meghan. C. Nursing student. Mixed.
Worked on part one of the novel in the natural light on the 7th floor board room. Pleasant spot actually.
Mom and Dad called today. To discuss what is to become of Christopher.
Anniversary Whipps Cross day. Sent a brief message.
Meghan. C. Nursing student. Mixed.
Worked on part one of the novel in the natural light on the 7th floor board room. Pleasant spot actually.
Sunday, August 14, 2005
Telephone
Ordered a telephone on Friday, got it working on Saturday - just in time to phone down to Bullocks Bistro to see if they had my glasses. They did.
Went to the gym today and yesterday. Reading Lazybones by Mark Billingham. His books are seeming to be a lot the same.
De is starting to invade my narrative space - so I better move ahead with the novel before fact overtakes and obscures fiction.
The travel agent Carey is looking for cheap flights to India.
Sa came on-line at 3:50 am London time Saturday night. After coming home one presumes. Another movie with Dr. G.?
Went to the gym today and yesterday. Reading Lazybones by Mark Billingham. His books are seeming to be a lot the same.
De is starting to invade my narrative space - so I better move ahead with the novel before fact overtakes and obscures fiction.
The travel agent Carey is looking for cheap flights to India.
Sa came on-line at 3:50 am London time Saturday night. After coming home one presumes. Another movie with Dr. G.?
Thursday, August 11, 2005
Words
Talked with Sa a bit yesterday.
Worked mainly on Part two of Widows walk today at the office. 8,786 words.
I went out with Roger for lunch to discuss him going to UVic and all of that. Afterwards I went home quickly at the 3:00 pm coffee time to bring home my passport, etc., as I had taken it to the office to fill out the Indian visa form. Checked the mail for parcel delivery notices, and checked my computer too; by coincidence, Sh came on-line while I was there, so I went visible but didn't contact her. Just a silly game to show that I won't bother her and she doesn't need to only come on-line when I am not there.
Don't know why she is coming on-line visible. She said something about how she was talking with her much younger cousin in NY. Anyway, my conditions are there. She is very unlikely to accept any of them, let alone all of them.
Worked mainly on Part two of Widows walk today at the office. 8,786 words.
I went out with Roger for lunch to discuss him going to UVic and all of that. Afterwards I went home quickly at the 3:00 pm coffee time to bring home my passport, etc., as I had taken it to the office to fill out the Indian visa form. Checked the mail for parcel delivery notices, and checked my computer too; by coincidence, Sh came on-line while I was there, so I went visible but didn't contact her. Just a silly game to show that I won't bother her and she doesn't need to only come on-line when I am not there.
Don't know why she is coming on-line visible. She said something about how she was talking with her much younger cousin in NY. Anyway, my conditions are there. She is very unlikely to accept any of them, let alone all of them.
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
Alarming
Alarming message from Sa this morning. Describes long telephone call with friend in another city in which suicide is being discussed. She asked for a photograph of Lucas, which I sent her. Haven't responded more fully yet.
Went to the gym at 6:00 am even though I didn't feel like it.
Skin irritations seem to be taking forever to heal.
Sh comes on and off on Yahoo Messenger. Sent her my message with conditions the other day. Suppose I should have done that long ago.
Went to the gym at 6:00 am even though I didn't feel like it.
Skin irritations seem to be taking forever to heal.
Sh comes on and off on Yahoo Messenger. Sent her my message with conditions the other day. Suppose I should have done that long ago.
Tuesday, August 09, 2005
Quote From Virgina Woolf Biography
Quentin Bell, pag 449
"In that 'phoney war' period of the war there were no air raids, but raids were expected and when, in October [1939], the Woolfs drove to London were confronted by large posters at Wimbledon declaring "The War Beings. Hitler Says: Now Its On," Virginia remarked to Leonard that it seemed foolish to have chosen that particular day for their visit. The appeared to be driving into a trap and she was frightened; but not for very long; later she felt there was sufficient community of sentiment in the capital to allow her to merge her private emotions with those of others. London seemed sober and business-like. At night it was dark and so unsocial she wondered whether she might not be seeing the end of urban life and the beginning of a time when badgers and foxes, owls and nightingles would populate the darkened city."
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A movie lies in the IMAGES described in the biography for her last few years: -- the death of the 1930s ... the death of a way of life (servants, the peculiarly singularly English class of people who were not in business but who lived on some capital) - and the coming of war - the death of the nephew Julian in Spain in 1937 ... driving through Nazi Germany on the way to Italy ... diminishment of the empire, etc. .... the wonderful sunny and false autumn of the phone war ... the madness of Virginia ... meeting with Freud in Mansfield Gardens (where I was myself, alone because Sh refused to accompany me) and how he wanted to talk of Hitler ... how Leonard and Virginia were strafed in the country side .... their (last) London home being bombed and Virginia salvaging first her diaries out of the rubble ... the sharp winter ... the shortages of food. The two suicide notes - one not being enough, there being, thereby, too much chance of being misunderstood with only one -- and that is what it was all about: being understood. And death.
"In that 'phoney war' period of the war there were no air raids, but raids were expected and when, in October [1939], the Woolfs drove to London were confronted by large posters at Wimbledon declaring "The War Beings. Hitler Says: Now Its On," Virginia remarked to Leonard that it seemed foolish to have chosen that particular day for their visit. The appeared to be driving into a trap and she was frightened; but not for very long; later she felt there was sufficient community of sentiment in the capital to allow her to merge her private emotions with those of others. London seemed sober and business-like. At night it was dark and so unsocial she wondered whether she might not be seeing the end of urban life and the beginning of a time when badgers and foxes, owls and nightingles would populate the darkened city."
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A movie lies in the IMAGES described in the biography for her last few years: -- the death of the 1930s ... the death of a way of life (servants, the peculiarly singularly English class of people who were not in business but who lived on some capital) - and the coming of war - the death of the nephew Julian in Spain in 1937 ... driving through Nazi Germany on the way to Italy ... diminishment of the empire, etc. .... the wonderful sunny and false autumn of the phone war ... the madness of Virginia ... meeting with Freud in Mansfield Gardens (where I was myself, alone because Sh refused to accompany me) and how he wanted to talk of Hitler ... how Leonard and Virginia were strafed in the country side .... their (last) London home being bombed and Virginia salvaging first her diaries out of the rubble ... the sharp winter ... the shortages of food. The two suicide notes - one not being enough, there being, thereby, too much chance of being misunderstood with only one -- and that is what it was all about: being understood. And death.
Monday, August 08, 2005
Moleskine
The Moleskine notebooks showed up today. Sent a thank you message to Deb E.
Sh rebuffed me the other day when she was visible and on-line (which is quite unusual) when my corner window photograph was of us at the Cambridge train station. She said that it made her uncomfortable - and she complained when it took me a few moments to get the photograph switched with another.
Jessie sent me a cartoon. 3 - 4 Lacs needed to emigrate.
Wonderful news from Saurabh - says that he and Priya are to get married in Mumbai in December, and he has invited me to attend. Surprising but very sweet of him. So, maybe I can get to India in time to go to the wedding.
Plus Deepa has come up with a collegaue who can show the way to the isolated, musical village of Areangadi within a few hundred kilometers of Bangalore.
Sh rebuffed me the other day when she was visible and on-line (which is quite unusual) when my corner window photograph was of us at the Cambridge train station. She said that it made her uncomfortable - and she complained when it took me a few moments to get the photograph switched with another.
Jessie sent me a cartoon. 3 - 4 Lacs needed to emigrate.
Wonderful news from Saurabh - says that he and Priya are to get married in Mumbai in December, and he has invited me to attend. Surprising but very sweet of him. So, maybe I can get to India in time to go to the wedding.
Plus Deepa has come up with a collegaue who can show the way to the isolated, musical village of Areangadi within a few hundred kilometers of Bangalore.
Monday, August 01, 2005
Eating
I find today that a great hunger for sweet things is coming over me. Bought some yogourt with sugar in it by mistake. And some sparkling water that was sweetened rather than just flavoured, by mistake again.
But perhaps this has put the hunger into me.
Also, barbeque peanuts - lovely to eat but crammed full of calories it seems.
Now I have given up -- for the time at least -- any thought of 179 and instead must focus on 189, and keeping it from becoming 190.
925 calories on the eliptical machine.
But perhaps this has put the hunger into me.
Also, barbeque peanuts - lovely to eat but crammed full of calories it seems.
Now I have given up -- for the time at least -- any thought of 179 and instead must focus on 189, and keeping it from becoming 190.
925 calories on the eliptical machine.
